I have been revisiting my faith over the last few months, asking myself and God many questions.
From discussions with friends I know that I am not alone in my questioning of faith and the direction I currently
fine myself on. It is not my lack of believe of God that I find myself questioning but my expectations I have placed around what I want or need or expect from God. It is interesting as I travel this path how far at times I
find that I have drifted from the simplicity of faith that I came from often brought on by books I have read or courses I have done. Why in hindsight have I travelled so far from my core beliefs that I know work? why have I travelled along this path.
Maybe it is too allow me to see what is not working and to give me the push to trust in my inner knowledge and faith once again. When I was younger I rarely questioned myself and the answers that came when I asked questions about myself, but as I aged I have giving away that power of belief in myself to others. It was a slow process and I did not realise that I was doing this. So why am I so surprised when I am now feeling disassociated from my guides and god.
This is a good thing, no a great thing to happen to me, to be shown that I have stepped away from my source and to be able to create the change back; how lucky is that. I know that it is simple as just believing and then getting out of my own way.................this is me doing just that. I am excited about seeing what now materialises in my life now that I am back on track. God has not left me I created a false idol and prayed at its feet because it sparkled at me and made promises...God does not promise me anything but to be with me always, now what more could I ask for.