Am I the blockage? or are my dreams really just that? Is it beyond me these expectations as I grow older? Or are these dreams and expectations an illusion that actually stops me from living out my destiny. How many road blocks do you came across before you stop for good. I have always thought that if there are so many obstacles placed in ones way then it may not the right path for you to be on. Now I have found that at times I can create for myself without issue but this does not seem to apply to the things that I crave to achieve.
Is this my lesson then, to be always the warrior and battling to achieve my goals? My inner mage gets so impatient with me for having limited thoughts as I also know the power of magic and what it also can achieve. Maybe I need to learn to combined my warrior and mage into the mantle of my human body and soul and then see what happens.
Life is so short but the journeys within it and the lessons to both learn and teach can seem forever. I find at this time of the year - winter - and being housebound I become at times a vegetated being with low energy and no drive to do what I know I should to keep on track. I believe that I am continually being tested and found wanting in my resolve to myself - I know that I am the one doing the judging and the more I judge myself harshly the less I achieve. I will continue to work on my inner demons as I am determined to see my dreams become part of my daily reality
It is a good thing that I have tools to deal with all of my own idiosyncrasies and that I am on high alert during this time of year to not go to far into self sabotage and that I do truly believe that these trials will one day soon be so behind me and that the home and business of my dreamscape will be my now.
" Keep moving warrior mage into the mirror and join hearts that beat as one"